Sarah’s Suppression: The Obsession to Not Feel

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When things suddenly change and you’re supposed to remain un-bothered. It’s all a part of the defiant act of living. Denying our humaneness to appear emotionally stable. There is no stability in emotions. No solid form, it’s like trying to nail jello to a tree.

They will not submit to the subtle choke of a leash. Untamed. They are erratic and unapologetic. Yet we suppress, deny and act as if they don’t matter. Meanwhile, in our disdain, they seethe and start to seep…

They linger in backgrounds like memories taking me back around that time when he was more consistent. When my insecurity was silenced by his predictability.

But what do we do when patterns die and what is left is a faint whisper, an un-returned text and the toothbrush he left weeks ago, sitting as a reminder that he’s there somewhere in the in-between. He hasn’t arrived and he hasn’t completely left.

The gripping pain of the lingering.

And you better be quiet girl. You better keep cool.

Don’t let your humanness emerge and show him something exist inside you besides an orgasm and a sweaty thrill ride with soaked up sheets and bed hair.

Better not show him you care. He wants to know that you don’t so that your love doesn’t smother him. Since when did love become a sinister sadist roaming the earth looking for victims to torture? After all, isn’t love the giver of life? I can’t breathe air into you if you aren’t willing to be revived.

And after weeks of analyzing his sudden plot twist in my romantic story line, he casually replies to a text I sent 16 days ago…

He said, “I’m just doing me.”

In which I replied, “Oh, so that would imply your no longer doing me.”

He paused for about 30 minutes before responding and replied…

“huh?”

Tidbits with the ignorant conversationalist… More to come.

By Janell Hihi Copyright@2017

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Relationship Fatigue: Are You Tired of Togetherness?

 

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What happens when you don’t want to give or receive?

Now more than ever, I find myself saying, “If you ever need nothing, I am totally here for you!”

Are you dealing with someone just to get laid? Are you too lazy to put any effort into anyone but yourself and an occasional booty call to get a break from your daily routine of masturbation?

Instead of finding a boyfriend and making a mental, emotional and time consuming commitment, you’d rather opt for the shorter end of the stick that demands nothing of you but an occasional text consisting of the three letters “WYD” or “I’m on my way.”

You are so far removed from vulnerability, emotions and real intimacy that the title of friends with benefits is too heavy? You’d much rather prefer a more emotionless and robotic title for your situation-ship like “Masturbation Assistant.” That’s a lot more fitting considering the superficial circumstances.

In the past I hated overly sarcastic people. I thought that they were passive aggressive with zero courage to tell someone straight up how they really feel about them. That was until I underwent a mass awakening and I realized people don’t want you to be 100 with them.

Every day I use sarcasm to bury deep emotional issues I have because I am stuck in a matrix with people who celebrate acting like everything is always honky fucking dory.

No one wants you to keep it real. Not at work, not in family conflicts or in intimate entanglements. People who sugarcoat their words and use sly ass jokes to tame their internal rage go further in life in every aspect.

Although the further they go, the less authentic the bonds are that they form with others, it all comes down to playing the game. A game I wanted no part of for so long but I find myself surrendering to the older I become.

Being a realist in a world of bullshit is a glitch in the system that torments my soul. I just updated my software and joined the sunshine and rainbows application hoping that magically I can fit in and reap some of the benefits. Maybe if I act like everything will be okay, and think more on the bright side, I’d feel re-energized enough to enter into a real relationship, once in for all.

So far, it’s not working. So far, I’m just okay with being the way I am and I am completely done with trying to convince myself of being any other way then I am in this very moment which is…

Totally spent, exhausted and fatigued from intimate relationships, emotional entanglements and togetherness.

I wrote this blog because sometimes, in the darkest hour of the night I awaken from my slumber totally okay with my loneliness, relieved that I don’t have to share myself with anyone else, and terrified at my own contentment in this place of celebrated emptiness.

Which brings me to the conclusion that  maybe relationships aren’t for everybody. Certainly not for me. Not right now, at least!

Before I drifted back into my slumber I realize that there’s no one here taking up half the bed, snoring, breathing like a dragon or taking all the sheets. It’s just me, having me, all to myself.

~Bliss

By Janell Hihi Copyright@2017

Wholeness is Accomplished When Self-Division is Healed

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What divides you against yourself? Is it out-dated beliefs you picked up along your way throughout your journey in life from people who mis-read you?

Is it the naysayers who don’t see you the way you see you?

Is it those echoes of harsh critics who didn’t accept you, or the gifts you came here in this life to share?

Whatever it is that divides you within, and prevents you from being whole needs to be surrendered and released once in for all.

Believing in yourself is the only belief that counts. Believing you are worthy, capable, lovable, and deserving is the lose end that must be tied to create the wholesome oneness that we all wish to accomplish one day.

To begin your journey in wholeness. Get out a sheet of paper and write honestly and openly how you feel about yourself, and your capabilities in each category below.

When you are finished, write which beliefs were influenced by outside people, events or circumstances.

The objective is to identify what beliefs about yourself are formulated from you and those which were influenced by others. What beliefs are worth holding onto and which beliefs should you let go of?

  1. Love, relationships and intimacy:
  2. Money
  3. Career
  4. Self-worth
  5. Family
  6. Physical appearance
  7. Behaviors/attitudes

This exercise has helped myself and many of my clients take inventory of our beliefs and release what no longer serves us.

Nama-Slay – Everyday!

By Janell Hihi Copyright@2017

13 Signs You’re Fake Woke

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Tag someone who is fake woke!

The fake woke award for the month of July goes to Jay Z. Fact check his lyrics with raw data and you will see.

If you believe that you, or a loved one is suffering from being Fake Woke, please read the top 10 signs below. The first part of awakening is accepting that you’re asleep.

1.  You support Obama unquestionably, despite the fact that he set the black community back 30 years. Furthermore, you support politicians just because they are democrat or republican without reviewing their agenda, budgets, and policies for your community specifically. If you believe that everybody who is brown must be down, you are truly disillusioned.

2. You’re not involved in politics. You say things like, “I stay away from politics,” when in fact, politics is shaping your lifestyle and that of your children whether you make your voice heard or not. Just voting is not enough, researching who to vote for and demanding equality from politicians is what really counts. If you watch Keeping up with the Kardashians more than you read and watch the news, you ain’t woke son!

3. Your idea of a good wife is Black Chyna, Amber Rose or Kim Kardashian. Basically, your value system is based on purely on looks, the size of a woman’s ass or breast. Her character is meaningless to you because you lack character yourself. You like girls who have a lot of likes on social media. You idolize them just because other people do. You have no sense of authentic taste or preference in women. Everything you do and everyone you date is based on what’s trending.

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4. You believe changing your mindset and being more positive will magically make all the corruption in the world disappear. Positive thinking is powerful for self-improvement. However, at some point those positive thoughts need to turn into positive actions. By all means, think positive and be proactive. However, don’t act oblivious to corruption and systems set up to attack you regardless of how much you meditate, do yoga or chant Bhuddist prayers.

You still have an obligation to fight for equality and human rights. If you try to be so positive that if anyone comes to you with facts that may appear negative you label them as “A negative person” you are not woke! You are in a state of oblivion. Learn the difference. Woke people accept the yin and the yang, the sunshine and the rain.

5. You are Loyal to a fault to a religion, political party, or some other cult-like affiliation. Remaining objective, somewhat unattached and skeptical allows you to think critically regarding everything you encounter. Woke people are only committed to the truth, and they won’t ever put loyalty over what is just and what is right!

Fake woke people, deny, defend and stubbornly attack anyone who asks critical questions regarding any associations they are involved with. Vulnerable people who blindly follow institutions are fake woke. Real woke folks will stay open and observant and if they are involved in an association that they once thought was legit but turned out to be a fraud.

6. You never fact check. If you find yourself listening to unsolicited advice from doctors, professionals, co-workers, families and friends without doing research to check to see if it’s actually good advice, you’re fake woke! If you read a book and don’t do a simple Google search on the author, but take every piece of advice in the book to heart, you’re fake woke.

If you vote for a politician just because they are democrat or republican, without reviewing their policies and background thoroughly, you’re fake woke. If you listen to an album like Jay Z’s without fact checking lyrics that offer financial advice, you’re fake woke. If you buy food without reading the labels, carelessly putting anything in your body, you’re fake woke! If you don’t do the research, you are not enlightened enough to engage in critical thinking, fact checking and uncovering hidden truths.

7. You only read books when you are required to. If the only  time you find yourself reading a book is when it’s mandatory for a class or employer, you are fake woke! Reading is the vehicle to awakening. Regardless if it’s history, fiction or non-fiction, books elevate our lives by adding experiences from others to our psyche and understanding of the world. Spiritually awakened people typically keep books in rotation.

Reading a new book every other month or so. It is through books, they travel through time and space, connecting with a world from past, present and future perspectives with each new title they devour. If you don’t read books at all, your not woke. No exceptions!

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8. You are apolitical.  I can’t stress this enough! You just don’t do politics at all. You think you are above politics but politics is what dictates the quality of your life. You cannot be woke and ignore the political climate because being woke makes you more curious about politics, especially those affecting your community, race and economic class.

Being woke makes you aware. You start to gravitate towards everything that will enlighten you. Being aware of politics and understanding your important role in taking part in it to make a change is a sure sign you are wide awake. If you don’t even know who is running in local offices in your city, parish, community, etc., You have a long way to go before you can say you’re woke.

9. You are selling a product that requires you to act like you care about other’s well being. If you are in a multi level marketing company and selling super foods in a canister or a miracle weight loss smoothie, please take several seats. Before you started selling manufactured super foods, perhaps you should of did some research. Super foods can’t be created in a lab, they only grow on trees.

Furthermore, before you started promoting theses products you really never cared about other’s health, only that of your own. Not the collective. If you find yourself suddenly becoming passionate about health after you sign up as a distributor for an MLM company, you are indeed fake woke. Stop acting like you care when your just trying to make a quick commission.

10. Everything you post on social media is a meme/quote about being woke. Everything you post is way to deep. It’s not like it’s links to educational articles or current political events. It’s just fluffy quotes on positive thinking and meditation. It’s unrealistic and most people can’t relate to it because they are too busy dealing with real life, day to day bullshit.

And you wonder why you don’t get any likes and are frequently unfollowed. You’re annoying because you preach constantly about what people should, and should not be doing or thinking. Too bad people who know you in real life know that you are a walking, talking contradiction that doesn’t take your own advice. Every quote or meme you post has an agenda behind it. You’re either trying to get likes for ego gratification, trying to sell something, or trying to act woke.

11. You believe in individual success over collective success. You are all about the come up and trying to become a millionaire. You believe some people make it and others don’t depending on how hard they work. You never educate yourself on the politics behind what it takes to be successful. You are easily swayed by celebrities and billionaires telling you that you can be whoever you set your mind to without ever doing the research to see all the help they got along the way that aided them in acquiring their wealth. You don’t know what social capital means nor do you know how generational wealth and/or poverty affects your ability to succeed.

12. You have No Chill. EVERYTHING you do online and in person is humorless and extremely, cult like political or esoterically deep. When I say deep I mean the “deep end.” People are usually baffled by your post on social media, not inspired. You are too random and unconnected like a cult ring leader who just drank the Kool-aid. You can bullshit and post funny videos online sometimes, not just all extreme political and positive thinking bullshit non-stop on a continuous loop. Give yourself a break and stop being so damn serious! Online energy vampire!

13. You think everyone has the power to change their own life. No, they don’t!  Sometimes bad things happen to good people and life sucks and it’s not fair! Do you think vision boards will help starving kids in Africa magically manifest food? Thinking positive won’t change that. Being realistic will change that, along with the healing that takes place with time. Depression is real and so it politics. Creating positive change in our lives take work, not just magical thoughts.

13. You don’t watch the Breaking Brown Yvette Carnell Show. If you don’t know who Yvetter Carnell is, you fake woke. Okay, well, I may be promoting my favorite political show on YouTube but the knowledge you can learn on this show can and will change your life. If you’re not woke, you can get woke by watching this show. Please tune in every Monday and Wednesday at 9PM CST. Checkout Irami as well. Follow them on Twitter and Facebook. Watch the show and comment below and tell me how you were ENLIGHTENED.

14. You only eat organic food and you are faithful to your commitment to veganism. However, you drink alcohol every chance you get, pop pills and smoke cigarettes. You are a walking, talking contradiction.

Are you really woke? If not, it’s okay. It’s never too late to change! It takes more than meditation and vision boards. It takes action. By all means use your boards and meditation mats but do the work as well. DO THE WORK! There is no faith without ACTIONS.

You know a “fake woke” friend. Admit it, you thought about them and laughed the whole time you read this blog.

And you’re going to share this on your Facebook page just to see if they like the post and don’t know it’s targeting them!

By Janell Hihi Copyright@2017

Eating Healthy Requires Strategic Preparation.

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Go on a diet they said! Eat healthier foods, 80% of weight loss is what you eat.

Both statements are true. However, no one explains the logistics behind what it takes to implement a healthy lifestyle and diet.

Preparation is they key to success. Being honest with yourself about where you are lacking in regards to Preparation, creating shopping list and budgeting realistically is the first step to a successful weight loss plan.

We ruin our diets because of the lack of planning ahead.

Successful weight loss starts with the following steps:

1. Set weight loss goals: What is your pants size? How much do you weigh? Take your chest, waist and hip measurements. Write this down in your weight loss diary or on a chart to hang up in your home to keep you motivated.

Next, write your weight loss goals beside or underneath your current weight, pants size and measurements. How much weight do you want to lose? What is your desired pants size? What is your desired measurements?

Keep in mind losing 2-3 pounds a week is healthy weight loss. Calculate a realistic timeframe based on those numbers.

How long will it take to get to your desired weight or pants size?

Remember pants size is more important than weight. Water retention, PMS and other factors cause weight to fluctuate 5-8 pounds. If your dropping pants sizes you are losing weight.

Pay attention to how your pants fit instead of the numbers on the scale.

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2. Physical exam: Now that you have your goals in place, make an appointment with your doctor to get a physical.

Get the test taken during the first few days of your cycle (when you have your period), if possible .

Ask your doctor to check your B Vitamin levels, electrolyte levels, Thyroid hormone levels, cholesterol, blood sugar levels and Vitamin D levels.

If you’re a woman ask your doctor to test Vitamin D3, estrogen, progestine, thyroid, FSH and LH levels which are very important in determining the quality of your health. Tell your doctor what to do, more than likely they will tell you the test are unnecessary but remember you are not just a patient, you’re a customer who is paying them!

You can follow up on your blood test by using a home saliva testing kit from DiagnosTechs or Phamasan. Testing your hormone levels over a 30-day period via saliva provides far more accurate results than a blood test taken on a single day and it can help better pinpoint the exact problem.

All of the above can significantly effect weight loss results. If you have any deficiencies your doctor will prescribe vitamins to replenish deficits. If you have high blood sugar and high cholesterol- your new diet should address lowering those two numbers.

Test results will take a week or so. In the meantime start easing yourself into exercise by taking long walks outside or on the treadmill for at least an hour a day.

Assessing your test results:

Most hormone-related issues women deal with are the result of too low progesterone, too high estrogen levels and excess androgen. This is what is happening when you have PCOS, endometriosis, PMS, and problematic periods more generally.

Substitute sides like chips and fries with salads. Example have a burger and a side salad. Chicken with a side salad.

Stop drinking sugary drinks asap. No juice or soda. Ease yourself into better eating by doing this!

3. Plan your meals/prep. Before you go shopping, Are you doing Paleo? Low carb? Or just dropping calorie intake? And which supplements you need to take.

Plan 7 days of meals/snacks. I don’t recommend cheat days until after 35 days of starting a new diet.

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Example: day 1. Breakfast, egg omelet with spinach, organic cheeses and veggies.

lunch: chicken breast with 4 cups of salad, low carb dressing.

snack: carrots with peanut butter.

Dinner: beef with broccoli and brown rice.

snack: 1/4 cup of nuts.

Meal planning helps you build your grocery list and budget. Never assume healthy eating is more expensive- it’s not!

However, it is more time consuming, but you need to charge that to the game. It comes with the territory.

Meal planning should include what recipes you want through the week: example what proteins, vegetables, fruits, and grains you need.

If your planning on eating salad everyday buy bulk salad and dressing.

Make sure you have tubawear to make grab and go meals/salads.

Example shopping list:

Proteins: Chicken breast and chicken legs. Turkey bacon, Salmon, ground turkey. Buy organic meat if you can!

Vegetables: Bulk lettuce and spinach. Carrots, onions, broccoli, cilantro, bell peppers and cauliflower and zucchini.

Fruit: Apples, berries, grapefruit and kiwi.

Grains: Brown rice and Almond flower healthy cereal and meal replacement bars.

Condiments: Hot sauce, fat free ranch, Italian dressing. Almond butter or peanut butter and say sauce.

Dairy: Almond milk and organic cheese.

Oils: Olive oil, vinegar, coconut oil ghee or butter.

Storage: tubawear, large glass jars with tops, lunch bag/sack, stainless steel water bottle, smoothie to go bottles, freezer bags, ziplock bags.

4. Find coupons and go shopping: Never forget your list. Spontaneous shopping can sabotage your diet. Try to eat a meal before shopping. I like to shop after dinner or after breakfast during the weekend.

5. Go home, and start prepping meals asap: Cook your proteins, sides and prepare salads and snacks for an entire 5 days! If your using plastic tubaware let food cool to room temp before putting it inside the containers.

6. Stack in the fridge/freezer in a easy and organizational way. Your fridge should be neat and well organized.

Freeze vegetables and fruits you won’t eat to save them from spoiling.

7. Grab and go should make dieting easier. Every 5 days prepare to spend a few hours meal prepping. Make it a priority and a habit.

8. Create a realistic workout plan. Workout according to your schedule. Workout 30 minutes weight training followed by 30 minutes cardio. Muscle speeds up metabolism, don’t just do cardio, do both.

Warm up with stretching before exercising.

Keep it simple at first. Jog/power walk or elliptical for first month. Just do weights on easy to use machines and dumbbells your first month. Then Graduate into push ups, pilates and planks later.

Then join a gym or get a trainer to advance your workouts after 6 weeks. Workout at least 5 days a week for one hour or longer.

Cheat days DON”T DO IT

Have a cheat meal not a cheat day. A cheat day implies you eat whatever you want all day. This can ruin your diet. However, a cheat meal is just cheating on one meal. You can choose whether you want to cheat on breakfast, lunch or dinner is your choice. You cannot cheat on all three meals!

Supplements: Should be based on what vitamin deficiencies you have based on your physical exam with your doctor. Try to eat food that have what you need before taking supplements.

If you are on birth control take B12 asap. Birth control depletes B12 which converts food to energy metabolism, which is why woman on birth control gain weight!

Apple cider vinegar

Flax seed and chia seed for Fiber

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B stress complex

Magnesiun

Milk thistle

Vitamin D3

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Co Q10

Calcium especially is you cannot eat dairy!

Probiotic – High quality.

Take your vitamins with meals. I take some during breakfast, others during lunch and the rest during dinner.

Preparation is just the beginning. I really hope this helps someone on their journey to losing weight and eating healthier.

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By Janell Hihi Copyright@2017

 

 

 

Is Fear of Failure The Root Cause of Procastination?

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After years of self-introspection, I realized I procrastinated and put off my goals and dreams because I suffered from an underlying fear of failure.

Fear of failure is a result of a lack of self-confidence and self-trust.

It’s not about how bad you want it. 

It’s about rather you believe in yourself enough to pursue it and complete it.

Consistency is a product of believing in yourself and trusting that you have the skills, knowledge, and tools to accomplish your dreams.

Consistency is believing in yourself every day and every moment. It’s doing what you said you will do regardless of the fearful thoughts that enter your mind.

If you are constantly asking yourself in the back of your mind, “What if this doesn’t work?” This means you don’t believe in yourself enough to fully execute your plan.

When these toxic and negative thoughts creep up, we procrastinate as a result. Sometimes we procrastinate to review our plan repeatedly for possible errors.

Then we procrastinate by making ourselves busy with other things to avoid executing our plan. We use circumstances as an excuse for lack of confidence and fear or failure.

Procrastination is a sign of mental imbalance. 

Either you are pursuing a dream that you are not truly passionate about or you lack confidence and fear that it will fail.

It takes maturity to admit that you tried something and you were driven by superficial, egoic outcomes.

If you pursue a dream that can only earn you money but not divine happiness, procrastination will manifest in pursuit of a false dream.

So the next time you find yourself procrastinating, ask yourself the 5 questions below:

  1. Am I afraid to fail? If so why?
  2. Am I pursuing a goal or a dream that I am truly passionate about?
  3. Do I believe in myself enough to be consistent?
  4. How can I increase my self-confidence? Will Counseling help? A life coach? or Furthering my education?
  5. What do I expect to achieve mentally and emotionally if I accomplish this goal?

 

By Janell Hihi Copyright@2017

Chemotherapy Only Has a 2.1% Success Rate in Treating Cancer. Why Are Doctors Still Prescribing it?

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Why is it that doctors keep prescribing chemotherapy to Cancer patients when it only has a 2.1% success rate?

This makes no sense. Desperate and very ill patients take the treatment because they are often told it’s their only option.

Even worse, most medical insurance companies won’t cover alternative cancer treatments so they are stuck with a medication that has a very low success rate.

It’s similar to the predatory car dealerships that prey on people with bad credit by selling them old junkers for 7 times the price they are worth because it is the only vehicle their predatory bank will finance.

Chemotherapy is not a cure, it’s not even a viable temporary medication. It’s a profit. Doctors who subscribe Chemotherapy get massive kickbacks and drug companies continue to receive record high profits.

Yes, I understand that drug companies are in business to make a profit. But how much is too much and is it ethical?

In America today, more money is spent to treat cancer than to treat any other disease by far. In fact, according to NBC News, 100 BILLION dollars was spent on cancer drugs just last year alone…

As drug prices continue to fall under ever-increasing scrutiny, spending on cancer medicines has hit a new milestone: $100 billion in 2014.

That’s up more than 10 percent from 2013, and up from $75 billion five years earlier, according to a report published Tuesday from the IMS Institute for Healthcare Informatics.

Exactly how does the transactions for profit through chemotherapy prescriptions work? Watch the video below to find out.

The more research I conduct, the findings get more disturbing. The highest paid doctors who benefit most from chemotherapy is Oncologist.

According to the research of Steven Levitt and Stephen Dubner of Freakonomics fame, “Oncologists are some of the highest paid doctors, their average income is increasing faster than any other specialist in the medical field, and more than half their income comes from selling and administering chemotherapy.”

Yes, you read that right. Oncologists make a huge profit, as much as two-thirds of their income in some cases, from chemotherapy drugs.

Their business model is very different from other doctors because you can’t buy chemotherapy drugs at your local pharmacy.

Oncologists buy these drugs direct at wholesale prices, then they mark them up and bill the insurance companies. This legal profiting on drugs by doctors is unique to the cancer treatment world.

They’re making money off the drugs that they insist you take to save your life. That’s a HUGE conflict of interest. They’re selling you the drugs and charging you for the privilege of putting them in your body. No other doctor can do that.

By Janell Hihi @copyright 2017

30 Days of Gratefulness

 

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Lately, I’d rather sit in front of a computer screen glued to a newsfeed and stay bottled up inside the confines of my head.

I have writer’s block, social block and every other block you can construct within your imagination. The dark side seems more attractive to me and optimism is trickling out of me like a slow leak from a car.

I’m losing my angst, my push, that little voice that kept telling me to get up is now a faint echo in the background of my complacency. I am learning the truth about my existence and I am exhausted by my awakening.

Nothing is clear or defined, everything is muttered, foggy and uncertain. I suspect this is the perfect moment to rise, redeem and resurrect.

My only viable lifeline left is to recognize what good I still have left. Today, I am starting my journey into gratitude, that I hope will incite within me, a more positive attitude and a rebirth of my motivation that recently died.

Today I am grateful for my beautiful daughter.

In those moments when her laughter breaks through my darkness like a lightning rod and I forget for a moment the mounting bills piling up, my mother’s pain from her arthritis and the routine of my daily grind, I suddenly become alive.

In that moment, when money doesn’t matter, politics are obsolete and anxiety subsides, I see in her emerald eyes my freedom to choose happiness over everything else.

When she challenges me to be better by pointing out my contradictive behavior, her strong will and bravery to point out what is, and what isn’t fair, her existence as a constant reminder that with her, I do have a love that will last an eternity.

I am beyond blessed and very lucky to have a brilliant, beautiful and loving daughter. 

by Janell Hihi Copyright@2017

 

 

5 Ted Talks Every Woman Should Watch

Skip the reality show for just one night and watch these thought-provoking, essential Ted Talks that can potentially change your life. Be encouraged, stay open to learn and continue to evolve!

#1) We Should all be feminist.

The first Ted Talk every girl should watch is from Nigerian Author Chimamanda Ngozi. Her thought-provoking, eloquent and unique perspective on the importance of divine feminism will have you in absolute awe. On Beyonce’s album, the song title  “Flawless,” You can hear the beautiful and strong words of Chimamanda in the background breaking the chains of patriarchy. A must watch for all the ladies!

 

#2) Trust Your Struggle. 

There is beauty in the struggle although it may feel awful, we need the lessons. They shape us and make us even when we feel like they are breaking us. Listen to this heartfelt Ted Talk about this young lady’s struggle and how she used it as a catalyst to fulfill her dreams.

 

#3) How online abuse of women has spiraled out of control

Actress Ashley Judd shares personal stories of online and offline abuse she has experienced as a woman throughout her life. Online bullying has recently spiraled out of control and it is affecting young woman’s lives in devastating ways. Watch and learn, forward the video to every young woman you know.

 

#4) The Power of Vulnerability

There is no greater power in the world than to take the risk to love despite knowing it can break your heart. Many women, especially African American, struggle with vulnerability because we are overly-shamed for making human mistakes. Fear of being scolded, not loved in return or being hurt keep us from experiencing true love. This video is necessary for every woman alive to watch now!

 

#5) Honest Liars — the psychology of self-deception

By providing content, resources, and connections, Dr. Cortney Warren’s goal is to support anyone who is brave enough to live a more conscious life. For when we are honest about who we really are, we have the opportunity to change. Are you lying to yourself? If you are, you are missing out on the experience of an authentic life. A must see!

 

#6) The Art of Being Yourself.

Caroline McHugh nails this Ted Talks with very useful information about the power of being yourself. It is the only way to experience true fulfillment, happiness, and intimacy. We can never be happy pretending to be someone that we are not. Watch it as soon as you get a chance and remember being yourself will get you closer to the authentic lifestyle you wish for.

 

 

By Janell Hihi Copyright@2017

Outcome Anxiety: How to Stop Worrying about What Might Happen

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There are several different types of anxiety. Most anxiety revolves around uncontrollable worrying. When we worry, it stems from fear or anxiety regarding how something will turn out in the end.

For example, if you go on a first date with your crush before the date you worry about how you look, what you will wear, how you should do your hair and make-up, etc.,

During the date, you worry about how you are coming across to your date. Most people want to control the impressions others have of them while dating instead of just enjoying the date and going with the flow.

Anxiety is about wanting to always be in control. 

Outcome anxiety is an obsession with outcomes. After the date with your crush, you begin to worry if they like you or not, or when they will call or text you again to ask you on another date.

Outcome anxiety is the inability to just let things be.

The only cure for outcome anxiety is faith, trust in yourself and meditation. I suffered anxiety attacks a few years ago from overwhelming stress from problems in every area of my life. I did not allow myself to heal from my divorce and I got involved with people who took advantage of my weakness and vulnerability.

Meditation

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I started to meditate again. I made it a priority to put myself first! I scheduled meditation time so that I could sit quietly and observe my thoughts. My thoughts were out of control!

What I learned about meditation was that meditation does NOT stop you from thinking. It detaches you from believing every thought that goes through your head.

Anxiety takes place when what we think revolves around our fears and we believe those thoughts and let them wreak havoc on our lives. It starts out mental and then it turns physical as our chest tightens, our heart starts beating out of control and our breathing becomes rapid and shallow.

Meditation allows you to watch your thoughts like your watching a movie. It allows you to be detached from your mind. While doing this you realize you are not your mind and everything you think can’t be taken seriously.

Don’t take your thoughts seriously. Do not think that you can stop yourself from thinking either. Your mind is separate from your being and it will never stop thinking. Don’t try to control your mind, just observe it and only take thoughts that serve you well seriously and let the toxic and fear based thoughts go.

Fear cannot be eliminated from our lives. We feel the fear and do what we have to do anyways. People don’t get over fears, they fight through fears. This takes courage but it’s not impossible. People fight through fears every day. Don’t allow fear to take over your mind because if you do, anxiety will be an everyday part of your life.

Faith

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Faith can move mountains. Literally! Learning how to have faith has been the most difficult task in my life. I am a very cerebral and intellectual individual and faith requires a level of spiritually I did not easily succumb to. This was to my own detriment. I learned the hard way that I must have faith otherwise anxiety would take it’s place.

Faith is believing good will happen despite your current circumstances. 

Faith is trusting the process and believing that despite what happens, it was for the best. Some things are not meant to be and that is okay. Faith is reassurance that regardless if things go left or not, there is a greater plan at work. Faith is looking at the big picture and not allowing the little setbacks we encounter to take us off our mission.

Faith is noticing the negative but not FOCUSING on the negative.

Anxiety outcome requires you to realign your focus to the positive instead of the negative. It doesn’t mean you do not acknowledge negativity as it occurs, it means that you become solution oriented and try to tackle those problems rather than imagining they are bigger than they actually are which induces anxiety.

Self Trust

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If you believe you can’t handle pain, uncertainty or disappointment, you will live your entire life within the strong grips of anxiety.

Self-trust is confidence. Confident people believe that despite who rejects them or who leaves them, they are still fabulous and capable of finding love with someone else. Confident people aren’t afraid to role the dice and lose because they don’t focus on loss as an outcome, they focus on winning. If they lose, they shake it off and learn from the experience.

Confident people think positively. They focus on what great things could happen instead of what bad things could happen in any situation.

Do you trust yourself? Do you feel if something goes wrong you will die of despair, heartbreak, and loneliness? Being negative is being dramatic! Somethings just don’t workout, I had to keep repeating this to myself until I believed it.

My life has changed because I make meditation a practice, I have faith good things will happen despite my circumstances and I trust myself enough to know that if the outcome is not as I expected, some things are just not meant to be and something better is coming!

I no longer suffer from anxiety. I let go of the need to control outcomes and whatever shall be, will be. Regardless of any outcome from any situation, I know that I am strong enough to accept it, deal with it and grow from it.

Namaste

by Janell Hihi Copyright@2017