It’s Your Responsibility to Heal from What the Narcissist Did to You

I’ve been there! I wanted the narcissist to pay for what he did to me and how horrible he made me feel.

But nothing I did to try to make him pay worked. I was still hurt.

I waited for karma to come in and serve him a cold dish. That never happened!

What goes around doesn’t always come back around.

And we make it an obsession to see if it does.

It may be their fault for manipulating you.

BUT it’s your responsibility to heal from the pain, move on and become a wiser and stronger person because of it.

That won’t happen after you see the narcissist get what they deserve. It will only happen when you turn inward and hyper focus on your own healing.

Taking responsibility is not an admission of guilt. It’s total acceptance that only you have the power to heal yourself.

As long as you keep blaming the narcissist the more ammunition they have to keep you stuck in victim mode, paralyzed spiritually.

It may not feel like it now, but there’s a blessing in the mess the narcissist caused in your life. You are about to awaken to your truth!

Today, forget about whose fault it is… instead take responsibility and work hard to change the way you feel. Check out the video from Will Smith that inspired my blog. “Fault vs Responsibility”

eBook Release: How to Defeat a Narcissist


  • Are you or a loved one trapped in a relationship with a Narcissist?
  • Are you struggling to find a way to beat them and escape the trap they set to ensnare you? 

    Do you want to live a happier and more fulfilling life?

    Living in a relationship, where fear, anger, hurt and low self-esteem are the tools that are used to keep you is dangerous! For most of us, we want loving and secure relationships in which we are equal. But that isn’t what the Narcissist wants.

    It’s time to take back your power.

    This book will breakdown narcissistic myths and replace them with raw and unfiltered facts that will arm you with the mental weaponry to take down a narcissist effortlessly. Be prepared to bookmark word for word comebacks that will shut down gaslighting, mental, and verbal abuse.

More importantly, learning how to deal with narcissists in general is crucial to maintaining happiness and well-being. It serves as a lifetime guide to finding and developing healthy relationships.

This book will reveal the glitch in the narcissistic matrix. It’s your way out! For far too long, victims of narcissistic abuse played checkers while the narcissist was playing chess.

It’s time to upgrade your game and play to win! Are you ready to heal for real?

In this book, you will find your own set of tools to use to reclaim your life and heal from narcissistic abuse to emerge smarter & stronger than ever before.

This book will cover the topics listed below and much more…

-The number one characteristic that defines a Narcissist
-Why they pursued you
-How to deal with a narcissist you can’t discard (Family, coworkers)
-How to shut down gaslighting
-Recognizing and defeating love bombing
-Projection as a means of manipulation
-Why the Narcissist must keep you afraid of losing them
-Healing from Narcissistic abuse
-How to manipulate the narcissist
-How to discard the narcissist before they discard you
-How to properly unmask a narcissist
-The physical, mental & Spiritual Consequences of narcissistic abuse

It’s time to fight back and this book will show you exactly how to do it!

Read an excerpt from the books introduction below…

Narcissist are always reinventing their craft. Narcissist are like bacteria. Once exposed to an antibiotic they recreate themselves to adapt to the new environment. As they advance in recreation, we must too! Once an individual reveals their narcissistic ways it’s too late because at that point the victim has already fell in love with a lie. Removing the venom from the bite of narcissistic abuse is painful but it’s possible.

The first round of the fight with a narcissist is a game of hide and seek. The narcissist is pretending to be someone they’re not, do you have the knowledge to see through their smoke screen?”

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Paperback and audible version coming soon!


J.HIhi @Copyright 2019

Just Leave: The Timing is Never Going to Be Right


I looked through some of my old diaries today. I finally had some time to reflect on what I’ve been through but most importantly what I was strong enough to overcome.

When I was faced with the decision to leave toxic relationships, the timing was always bad and the circumstances, even worse.

I learned the hard way that there is never a perfect time to leave. There’s never a good time or a more convenient day. Today is the only day. Tomorrow is not promised and yesterday is dust lingering, quickly fading. Gone.

If you’re in a toxic relationships and you’re telling yourself, “I’ll wait until I get a job, I’ll wait until I save more money, or I’ll wait to see if he changes…” Stop prolonging the inevitable. You will need to leave eventually. You can’t continue to breath poison and survive. Leave now!

Either you’ll get discarded by the narcissist and have no choice but to move on or you will reach your breaking point and be forced to leave!

The funny thing about finally deciding to really leave is that when you build up the courage, the circumstances couldn’t be more dire.

But wait…

This is your chance to live the courageousness that you feel. This is the time to push through and make due with tears streaming down your face and uncertainty overwhelming you…

Sometimes we don’t have an exit plan. Sometimes the only exit plan is to GO! We make a plan as we go along. If you have to stay in a women’s shelter, live with a family member or friend or drive across the country for refuge. Just go!

And somehow, with the grace of God, when we leave doors begin to open. Resources become available, helpers come along the way to assist us in our struggle of rebirth mentally, physically and financially.

It’s a journey.

There isn’t a map you can download… No GPS to guide you- Just courage, faith and determination!

Nothing is holding you back.



Please share in the comment section if you’re a survivor of narcissistic abuse and how you decided to leave… what was your breaking point? What obstacles did you face? Most importantly, how did you overcome? Your stories will inspire others! I look forward to reading!

By Janell Hihi @Copyright 2019

When The Narcissist Threatens To Commit Suicide


The No Contact Rule is hard enough to accomplish alone. Imagine the narcissist showing up on your doorstep threatening to kill himself if you don’t go back to them?

Unfortunately, the fake suicide tactic is very common among narcissist. It’s their last resort to try to win back their partner. It’s an excellent form of manipulation because most people don’t take suicide threats lightly.

Suicide threats from the narcissist will provoke victims of narcissistic abuse to show pity for the narcissist and it may inspire them to put back on their cape and try to nurture and save the narcissist.

The narcissist may just say he needs a friend and he doesn’t want to get back with you but he’s lying, as usual!

The narcissist will use this classic fake suicide tactic to crawl back in through the good graces of his victim to resume the toxic relationship they once had.

I am warning you, don’t take the fake suicide bait!

If a narcissist threatens suicide contact the local authorities and report the threat. Do not respond to the narcissist. If you’re angry and say something mean like “Well, go kill yourself then!” That can be used against you and you could face criminal charges.

Ignore the narcissist but do not ignore the suicide threat.

Report it and leave it at that. If you are in the No Contact phase and well on your way to ending the relationship you must adhere to the rules. You cannot reply to the narcissist threatening text, emails, messages on social media or phone calls regarding their suicide attempts.

After you report the threat to the police your work is done. It is no longer your responsibility to soothe the narcissist and run to their aide. It’s time to take care of yourself!

Most suicide threats from narcissist never actually happen. It’s just a manipulation tactic. However, if a narcissist does commit suicide because you won’t go back to an abusive relationship with them, please know that it is not your fault. It actually has nothing to do with you and everything to do with their mental illness.

By Janell Hihi @Copyright 2019

PTSD Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from Narcissistic Abuse


Narcissistic abuse has lasting effects. Many victims of narcissistic abuse who believe they’ve healed experience uncomfortable symptoms of PTSD Post traumatic stress disorder weeks, months or even years after leaving a narcissist.

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder PTSD: Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is an anxiety disorder that may develop after exposure to a terrifying event or ordeal in which severe physical harm occurred or was threatened. Traumatic events that may trigger PTSD include violent personal assaults, natural or unnatural disasters, accidents, or military combat or severe mental or emotional abuse over a long period of time.

Narcissist can hurt their victims so deeply that PTSD can be experienced while in a relationship with a narcissist or for months or even years after a break up/divorce with a narcissist. Symptoms of PTSD include:

  • Physical and emotional responses to traumatic recaps
  • Disturbing thoughts or memories presented as nightmares and flashbacks
  • Difficulty in focusing or falling sleep
  • Conflicting feelings about oneself and the others, even people who care
  • Distorted sense of blame related to the trauma caused by the narcissist
  • Social retreat and isolation
  • Avoiding tendencies related to feelings, people or situations connected to the trauma caused by the narcissist
  • Hyper-vigilance, anger, being easily frightened
  • Fear or panic for no apparent reasons
  • Inconsistent or conflicting beliefs which lead to low self-esteem

Need help healing? Schedule a coaching session today. 

Do want the tools to fight narcissistic abuse and recover quickly? Check out my latest book. How to Defeat a Narcissist: The Complete Guide to Shutdown Narcissistic Abuse


By Janell Hihi @copyright 2019

Number One Tactic to Beat a Narcissist

“We are taught we can redeem them, she said to me once. We are taught it as soon as we can read. We can turn the beast into a prince, if only we love him enough.”

 —Louise Doughty, Apple Tree Yard

The number one tactic to beat a narcissist is to take off your cape. You can’t save them and you damn sure can’t change them!

Wake up sleeping beauties. It’s time to beast. It’s time to fight with every fiber in your being to get out of toxic relationships! To live. To be happy again! This book is a sword. It’s best used to slay anyone who dare challenge your boundaries by mistaking your kindness for weakness.

The eviction date for the narcissist to vacate your headspace is set. In a matter of time, you’ll be back in control of your emotions. The fog will clear and the sun will appear! A new day is coming! I’ve patiently waited to walk you to the other side, where your freedom anxiously awaits you. Feel the weightlessness as the ball chains that bind you begins to fall off. You will  become more YOU than ever before!

Loving a narcissist is baptism by fire. It hurts, but in the end, a stronger and more powerful version of yourself emerges from the ashes of ruin. The bittersweet paradox of pain is that we meet ourselves in it’s shadows. The meetings is so profound, it feels like an encounter with God.

Defeating a narcissist starts with defeating feelings of unworthiness within ourselves.

“The problem is not to find the answer; it’s to face the answer.” Terrence McKenna

Are you ready to heal for real? Get the book today! Click here


Sincerely Your Fellow Soldier…

Janell Hihi @copyright2019

Healing From Narcissistic Abuse Quick Tip#2

While healing from narcissistic abuse you deal with a tsunami of emotions. Just allow them to exist without fighting them. Feel them completely without denying or trying desperately to escape them.

“We “should” be forgiving. We “shouldn’t” be angry. We “should” be loving. We “shouldn’t” be critical. We “should” be generous. We “shouldn’t” be jealous.”


eBook Release! How to Defeat a Narcissist

How to Defeat a Narcissist 

eBook Available Now on Amazon & Barnes & Noble

Audio book & Paperback available April 29, 2019.


It’s time to take back your power.

This book will breakdown narcissistic myths and replace them with raw and unfiltered facts that will arm you with the mental weaponry to take down a narcissist effortlessly. Be prepared to bookmark word for word comebacks that will shut down gaslighting, mental, and verbal abuse. Remember, dealing with a narcissist is a battle that consist of prey and the predator. Are you sick and tired of being helpless prey to narcissistic abuse and toxic relationships? After reading this book you will be well equipped to calculate the narcissist every move and protect yourself against abuse using the tools and techniques formulated by in depth research, personal triumph, proven psychological and spiritual tactics.

This book is different from the rest.

It goes beyond the limits of the psychological aspects of narcissism and explores the narcissist through the perspective of society, culture, spirituality and metaphysics. Also, this book takes a deep dive into the physical symptoms of enduring narcissistic abuse that trigger stress and disease to manifest into the victim’s body. A relationship with a narcissist is very dangerous. This book provides counter techniques that will assist in defeating narcissist on every level. Mind, body and soul.

This book will reveal the glitch in the narcissistic matrix.

It’s your way out! For far too long, victims of narcissistic abuse played checkers while the narcissist was playing chess. It’s time to upgrade your game and play to win! In this book, winning is about regaining your power, values, and boundaries that the narcissist relentlessly tried to strip away from you. It’s about beating them at their own game while at the same time becoming a better and stronger person. Are you ready?

Click here to buy now! 

By Janell Hihi @copyright2019

Zodiac Signs That Refuse to Let Go of Their Ex

I’d rather skip the small talk and get straight to the point. Have you ever met a great guy or gal who stimulated you mentally and physically? The chemistry was great… you had similar goals and interests…?

Only to find out after a few dates that they’re still stuck like glue to their ex months or even years after the break up. If so, you probably were dealing with one of the four zodiac signs below who can’t let go of their ex.



Cancers are ruled by the moon. The moon represents emotions, feelings, memories and nostalgia. It pulls back the oceans tides and often pulls back Cancers who try to move on right back into the arms of their exes.

Cancers love what’s familiar. This is why they’re such a great match with Taurus. Both Cancer and Taurus hate change and find comfort in what’s familiar. Cancer is a cardinal sign. They lead their water sign tribe (Pisces & Scorpio). However, when it comes to love Cancer’s only appear to move on with their life after a break up. Under the surface, they are usually still very much in love with their exes.

Cancers are the best actors of the zodiac. Some of the greatest actors in Hollywood were born under this sun sign. They can act like they are over their ex but the truth is they have a very hard time letting go of anything that was warm, cozy and familiar to them. Cancers will bring the unresolved issues and baggage they had with their exes into every new relationship they form leaving a trail of broken relationships because they fail to take the time to be alone and heal after heartbreak. Cancers have a problem letting go.

Anyone dating a Cancer will need to understand that they may still have emotional or even physical ties with their exes. Cancers can start new love affairs effortlessly but they have a very difficult time officially ending relationships. They also go on and on talking about their exes to their new girlfriends, their buddies and close family members. Unfortunately, for many Cancers living in the past is more enjoyable than living in the future. Their memories are treasured more than the present moment making them one of those annoying zodiac signs who fail to appreciate new experiences and new people. They love to reflect on how things used to be. YAWN….

I have a Cancer friend who has been in an on again, off again relationship for 10 years with the father of her child. She’s also had 8 new boyfriends in between the break ups with her ex for the last 10 years. Can you imagine the messy travesty she’s put all her new boyfriends through while still having feelings for her ex?

If you’re like me and you prefer to be with someone who keeps the past in the past… you might want to pass on dating Cancer altogether! However, flings and one night stands are highly recommended.



There’s probably nothing more annoying than a Gemini who can’t get over their ex. Gemini’s love to talk. They are ruled by Mercury so verbal communication comes with finesses and ease. The twins are great communicators. Except when all they talk about is how much they hate their ex. FYI whatever Gemini’s hate, they actually love! They are paradoxical creatures… Nothing about them makes sense. Total mind fucks. However, when their heart is broken it stays broke for a very long time.

It’s hard for these gentle souls to get past the pain. Don’t let their amazing eyes and dashing smiles fool you. Beneath the conversation and after the debates… in silence Gemini’s are hurting and typically over an ex who broke their heart 8 years ago. Gemini’s don’t easily give their hearts but when they find someone and are willing to give up their prized freedom and commit… they really give it their all. When it doesn’t work out it crushes the Gemini. They may be a mutable sign but heartache is not something they easily bounce back from.

Sure they’ll date, sleep around and party like rockstars but best believe their heart is under lock and key… it will take a very long time for them to get over their ex from decades ago, open up their heart and give it to you… If you lack patience avoid the Gemini.

Like Cancer, he’s probably still sexing his ex or involved in some way. If I were you I’d stay away! Gemini’s don’t usually break up with people… they keep tabs one way or another to maintain some level of mental, emotional or physical intimacy. Gemini’s will stay friends with their exes and sleep with them a few times a year for 15 years. Be prepared to deal with their past because it ain’t going nowhere fast!

#3 LEO


Leo is the fixed fire sign who is as stubborn as a wildfire… they just won’t let up. It’s hard for Leo’s to give up on someone they truly love. The Leo is that guy or gal who just doesn’t get it when you tell them it’s over. They will stalk, beg, plead, threaten and even stoop so low as to say their going to commit suicide if you leave them. It’s really nauseating just thinking about how they cling like their lives depend on it.

The Leo loves being in love and letting love slip away is very difficult for them. Like Gemini & Cancer, they will move on if they have to but secretly, deep inside their soul, they know they are still in love with their ex simply because they don’t know how to let go.

Instead of dealing with those feelings and being alone, the Leo would rather jump head first into another relationship. All the baggage is carried into your relationship with them and the ex will have more control and power over your Leo partner than you do.

The Leo will shower their new lover who is just serving as a distraction from their obsessive thoughts of their ex but…. as soon as their ex calls or texts they will ghost you and may or may not ever come back. It depends, if they have an on again off again relationship with their lover, they’ll keep your number stored in their phone to use you until they get back together with ex again. Don’t get on the ride. It’s a vicious cycle. Make sure your Leo has no ties to their ex and the relationship is truly over.



Imagine the scene in the movie Titanic when the words where whispered… “I’ll never let go Jack!” Those are the words of a Pisces after every love affair they encounter. Pisces where their exes like tattoos and only an exorcism performed by a seasoned priest could cast out the demons of their ex lovers.

Pisces is the watery sign of imagination, wonder and fantasy. They love to daydream. Perhaps more than Aquarius. Holding on is more beautiful and fantastical then letting go. This is why Pisces often get left. They are seldomly the one to leave unless of course a more dreamy opportunity present itself. Pisces aren’t the most faithful zodiac sign. However, like Cancer and Gemini the Pisces will hold on to old lovers and create new love affairs when they are in the on again, off again stage of their relationship, which is the case most of the time!

Pisces romanticizes failed love affairs well past their expiration date and they miss out on better love prospects by staying somewhat stuck in the past. Pisces has one foot in the door and the other foot outside the door like a timid traveler who loves Paris but wants to see Rome. Can they leave the paradise of Paris without regret to discover a new scenery in Rome? The beautiful Pisces can do both. The Pisces will take pieces of Paris with them to Rome… They are collectors that hoard souvenirs dear to them because Pisces wants to feel and experience everything simultaneously. The future and of course the cherished past. To love a Pisces is to accept that more than likely they still have strong, unresolved feelings for their ex. Most Pisces have an open door policy.

By J. Hihi @copyright 2019